It's Ok To Miss People

Hello Everyone,

My story for today is that sometimes people go to college. And you realize, as you're watching a senior slide show about your big brother's best friend, who is practically your third brother, and you start crying... that they're leaving. And it's really sad. But THEN you realize that everyone they ever meant anything to feels the same way, at least a little bit, including themselves, and it's a little more ok.

I had the swim team banquet tonight and everytime a picture of a certain three people who I will not name came up, I got upset because I know they won't be back as swimmers and it will never be "the same" again. And THEN I realized that the person getting embarassed at the last home meet, and the person who has a touching slideshow made about them in two years is going to be me. And then I can't return to LPK. It will never be "the same" again. Life is constantly changing, and I guess we have to accept that.

I would not have said all this if not for all the sadness about leaving each other. So it's not going to be the same again- a good thing can't last forever. We had fun with each other, let's keep in touch, and look forward to a good year and maybe the conservatory next summer again for some of us.

Now for today- I really really enjoyed the caveman exercise. I've always had a crazy imagination- I remember someone told me when I was about 11 that if I ever did drugs, LSD would probably make me kill myself or something like that. And that is why you should NOT do drugs and stay in school kids! But onwards... I really enjoyed it and I was a little freaked out (as some people have stated) how easily you can tap into your primal instinct.

Rehearsal was a little less than fun since I was just watching lines and most everyone knew theirs. But THEN I got to rehearse right after (while 24 cast changed) and I feel better about my lines and I will see how they go today. I can't wait for Krispy Kreme, pizza, and hanging out with you AWESOME kids!

Love,
Julia

P.S. I'll make my sobby post tonight when I reminisce about today...