Uta Hagen & Number of Tickets

NOW for the official stuff. This is a really long post. Woo! And I guess we're supposed to post how many tickets we need? I need 6 tickets, if that's okay.

UTA HAGEN

1) Who am I?

I am Queen Margaret, a broken-hearted former mother, and wife. I am deprived of the privileges I worked my life for, and am bitter with awful memories. I am a prophetess with the power to tell exactly what is going on with different people, but I am not very sensitive to other’s feelings. My suffering has numbed me to the suffering of others and I am very enraptured in myself and my own troubles.

2) Where am I?

I am in England where it is often rainy. I am also in the court, where everything is based on hierarchies and power. I don’t have any, but I used to and this troubles me greatly. I have, in my exile from the power structure, found a way to transcend each step and take advantage of the power I can hold over people individually, if not formally.

3) What time is it?

It is a time of turmoil beneath something that seems peaceful. There is a war that has just ended, but the time of peace is not going to last long, mostly because of internal struggles amongst the noblemen of England, especially Richard of Gloucester. It would be in my best interest not to provoke him, but I don’t really look out for my best interest too often anymore.

4) What are my surroundings?

I am surrounded by people with a less deep understanding of life than me. I have seen far too much loss and despair and things are different now. I feel they play with life far too casually- it is not a thing to be trifled with. I am surrounded by the outdoors and my home. I am surrounded by people who have taken my life from me and seem to be enjoying it without a second thought.

5) What are the given circumstances?

The given circumstances are that I worked throughout my life and finally become queen. In return both my son and my husband were killed and I went from having everything to having nothing. Today, I spend my time living outside of the castle and wishing I lived inside of it. I am bitter with the hatred I feel for those who have taken the things that are by right mine.

6) What is my relationship?

These are all people who have taken what is rightfully mine and don’t seem to care about it whatsoever. It’s very frustrating to be a “has-been” at my age, and that is precisely what I am. I know I can’t have it back, I just want it back. And if my life is hellish, so should everyone else’s be. At the same time, I guess I care about these people. I wouldn’t want them ending up in the same position as me- I would like people to stop ruthlessly killing each other’s relatives and realize what the real dangers and values in life are.

7) What do I want?

I want to make them apologize. I want to earn respect. I want their attention. I want them to have an epiphany where they realize they have wronged me, ask my forgiveness, and at least honor me with the respect and attention I deserve as former queen. I may have been banished, but I will not accept that I am invisible.

8) What is in my way?

The other matters the kingdom faces- after peacetime, I realize (as I am a prophetess), that Richard is in my way. This struggle for power creates an environment where I can no longer be respected as I once was. The power structure is in my way, and it stops me from having the attention, the respect, and the forgiveness.

9) How am I going to get it?

I am going to whine, complain, make a riot, and act like a complete crazy woman. My heartbreak drives me to whine and complain in front of everyone, but it is really that which makes me appear crazy. I am so immersed in what I have lost- which now everyone has, that I can’t think of anything else. After a short time I will realize this does not work and I will begin to prophesize- to scare them into respecting and paying attention to me. If I cannot win their affection, I can at least win their fear.

10) How will I know when I’ve won?

I will have their attention. They will respect/notice/fear me, I will know that they feel sorry for what they have done to me and I will be, if nothing else, in the right again.