I promise I'm capable of nodding.

Today was just as fun but simultaneously much more serious than the first three days have been for me.  I keep forgetting that it's not supposed to be perfect yet, and it probably isn't even supposed to be good yet. I think I was too self-conscious and it definitely translates.

Even so, today was side-splittingly funny and working through those scenes was just so enjoyable. You all are fantastic. I would legitimately be quite content just sitting around all day plotting with Leo Brody.

The family portrait game definitely made me more aware of my relationships with other characters and objects onstage. That was may have been the most useful thing for me all day, apart from actually getting up and moving around and making mistakes.

I've always been a little overwhelmed with the feeling that acting requires so many things to think about. It still does, but understanding the breakdown is so much better; the explanation of the concept of packing did the most for me. All those things I'm worried about remembering - character, background, habits, etc. - I still need to spend a lot of time on them but the purpose of that time spent is so that I shouldn't have to think about it onstage after a point. Then, I can focus on objectives and reacting.

Essentially, I just need to quit worrying so much about being terrible because worrying is counter-productive.

I'm so happy about checking in and reinforcing. Only other thing - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8fbrUjjivw

And look. There is bad language. Please no one get me in trouble. It's funny.

-Hillary