Dirty deeds done dirt cheap.

This morning was absolutely my favorite of the entire two weeks. It was so good, and I learned so much. I felt like my contribution to today's run through was pretty rough, but I guess I was thrown off by dealing with the newness of playing around with a deformity, which was difficult, and we also didn't have the platforms set up. That threw me off. Everyone is writing in so many colors, too. 

Who am I? I'm Richard, King Richard III with or without the crown. I have no friends, nor do I desire any, just people to fear me or something. I am not a lover. I am determined to prove a villain. If that is what I must be, I'm going to be a good one. I am ambitious to prove myself to myself, I have confidence in my skill, I feel superior to many and simultaneously inferior to all.  I am deformed physically. Mentally? I am manipulative and disregard the value of others' lives as I am not sure how much one is really worth. I think I'm rather paranoid.

Where am I? I am in England. In London. I am perpetually on the battlefield, cheesily metaphorically speaking.

What time is it? It is peace time - I'm bored. It is a sort of modified 2009. 

What are my surroundings? I am surrounded by hostility, obstacles to my success, unhappiness, death, fear. I am surrounded by stone and blood and very nice clothing.

What are the given circumstances? Largely a snowball effect even if not like dominoes. We have just finished a war but I am still feuding, as are our families. I prefer the chaos of war. I am continually performing deeds that clear my path to the throne, and I just can't seem to stop.

What is my relationship? Edward - idiot. King, but an idiot. However, I do need him to trust me. He's my brother but in my way. Someone I can blame. Clarence - idiot. He's my brother but also really just an idiot. He would be king so I need to get rid of him while he trusts me. Queen Elizabeth - also someone I can blame for things. I definitely hate her and all her family. They do not deserve to be ruling. Young princes - too close to the Queen's faction, and too much in my way. They're young and idiots.  Lady Anne - my wife. She's pretty smart but she helps my power situation and I can always just get rid of her. Buckingham - He's good at helping me and I'll let him unless he pisses me off. He's pretty smart. Margaret - crazy, who cares. Duchess - Mommy... she's not that smart but not a total idiot. All of them I need to trust me, but none of them are as smart as I am so that shouldn't be hard. Honestly they don't have to trust me, but they do have to fear me. 

What do I want? I want to be king. I want to be an excellent villain. I want to frighten people into submission. I want to prove my superiority. I want to mock those inferior. I want to be happy with myself and my success as a villain. I want to be respected. I want to look good in the people's eyes. I want chaos but I want to be in control.

What's in my way? People are in my way. Some in line for the throne, some who simply have more power than I do. My conscience, occasionally, is in my way. My deformity is in my way. Fear is in my way. 

How am I going to get what I want? I am going to assert myself confidently, get rid of whoever hinders me, deceive the people into trusting me, let others do the dirty work, bribe people, lie, probably drink, make myself presentable.

How will I know when I get it? I will be king. People will fear me and respect me and do what I want. I will be secure and happy with my success, my conscience at bay or possibly simply vanished. 

I made a Richard pumped up mix with all kinds of creepy music. Of Montreal, but no GirlTalk. I'm excited about it.